i am so close to just giving up.

i’m sick of fighting.
your killing me…and the worst part is…
i’m letting you.

who am i?

i don’t even know anymore.

i just miss me, and what i could’ve been.

breaking down and not really not willing to put myself back together this time.

please…help…me.
because i know i won’t.

i had a bad day.
your going to make it a bad week,then month.
and as long as you can.

and i’ll let you do it.

because despite what i say…i’m not strong enough to tell me when i’ve had enough.

fuck me kill me.

i’m already lost

only create

I’m stuck up?

Really?

Really?

Just because I confronted you about how I do everything, 

even though you admitted it yourself just a day or two ago…

Really?

Fucking really?

Whatever.

I’m getting so fucking tired of this.

and these moments always break my heart

watching you as you fall apart

knowing there is nothing i can do

but stand here with my killer view

“I would really like a best friend”

Who the fuck am I then?

I didn’t realize you were my girlfriend

That I had to see you every fucking waking moment

Grow the fuck up

I’ve had enough

I try my best

Evidently

I’m still quoted as “the rest”

Yeah well fuck you too

I don’t need you

Don’t get me wrong

I adore you

And I miss you every day

But I don’t deserve this

Not ever

Especially not today

So today I give up

Because today I have realized

I’ll never be enough 

Yours Sincerely, Shazzie Sincere.

the fact this still crosses my mind,

kinder wishes me to rewind that time,

vodka and lime,

tequilla and sprite,

loud noises and strobelights,

countdown,

9,8,7,
hold you a lil closer,

6,5,4,
please just a little tighter,
3,2,1,
oh miss midnight,
with your corset so tight,
oh miss midnight,
let me hold you,

oh miss midnight,
kiss me like you’ll forget me,
and i won’t hold back,
like i’ve already forgotten you,
miss midnight,
in front of the masses,
feel no shame,
for i’m just a midnight gentleman,
with no advantages to be taken,
i’ll follow your lead,

with no secret intentions,
and forget it all when the dawn breaks,
and the headache kicks in.